In the book Imperfect Woman’s Self-Esteem, Susanna Laine highlights a moment when the gap between work and home seemed to widen.
After a busy week, Susanna Laine felt a sense of emptiness. Inka Soveri
Presenter-actress Susanna Laine, 40, handles The self-esteem of an imperfect woman new experience of living alone and how the glorification of a relationship is still strong in contemporary culture.
Laine went public at the age of 23 and soon noticed how the media and the general public were fascinated by her potential relationships as well as her male tastes. Laine understood that despite her public career, she did not want to share her private affairs with everyone.
– Over the years, there have always been paparazzi sitting outside my house thirsting for a secret, but there have also been times when I have been able to walk in peace, he says in the book.
Laine lived alone for years and also told about it in public.
– It felt good to notice that many lonely people took comfort in it. In my years of being alone, however, I noticed how difficult it was for some others to live alone or even accept it, and I often had to justify it.
– At least I really enjoy those years, except for a few moments, Laine says in the book.
Huge sorrow
In her book, Laine recalls a moment when, after a busy week and live broadcasts, she did not want to return to an empty home.
– Now you should get up briskly and go home. But again, that same every Friday phenomenon opened up to me: the gap between work and home felt like a wild transition. There would be no applause at home, but there would be nothing else. There would even be those screaming kids that would have to leave my job right at the door and start frying banana pancakes. But nothing. No one was waiting for me anywhere, Laine writes.
Laine thought at the time that she was longing for someone else to tell her about. On the other hand, he felt a contradiction in not wanting anyone next to him.
– A huge sadness overwhelmed my mind. I was just lonely. And right now it felt awful.
Laine collected her belongings and left for her job at the gym. After the workout, he went to the pool so he didn’t have to go home just yet.
– Gradually I started to calm down. I walked into the locker room, tears began to drain from my eyes. I felt my unexplained grief as I walked into the car and all the way home. In the backyard, the tears subsided and I called my friend, Laine writes and continues to receive a happy response from the end of the thread.
– Soon a small feeling of happiness flashed in my heart. Maybe I could open the front door and land at home.
Susanna Laine & Terhi Ketola-Huttunen: The self-esteem of an imperfect woman (Otava) will be published on May 25.