Rachel Hazes did not shower for quite some time in the fall of 2016. It was ultimately the prelude to one of the most terrible events of her life. “Short circuit!”
She denied it for a long time, but nowadays Rachel Hazes talks very openly about it: the suicide attempt she made on February 9, 2017. She was then going through an extremely depressive period, but what exactly preceded that? The professional widow reveals it in the podcast What’s About to Happen by Najib Amhali.
Unshowered Hazes
It all started the previous fall, Rachel said. “I fell in October 2016 in an inexplicable way. I can’t tell you yet what that was and then I was found a day later. I was taken to hospital by ambulance and I don’t know anything about it, so I don’t know how I fell.”
She continues: “I don’t know that I was in the ambulance. I don’t know what kind of research they did then. And actually from that moment on things went very badly for me. I became forgetful and disheveled and stopped showering and eating. Long story short: I just got worse and worse.”
Crazy woman
According to Rachel, that sad period resulted in one of the darkest days of her life. “In 2017 I had a bit of a short circuit and then I attempted suicide and then I was admitted afterwards.”
Rachel was then found by her then best friend Marieke van Beek, Yvonne Coldeweijer adds juicechannel. “And then your former BFF saved you and thanks to her you’re still alive. And took care of you and kept your business running. And you are now thanking her for that with a number of lawsuits. Crazy woman.”
How do you feel?
Why was Rachel so helplessly lost? “I think I’m a woman who never really says how I really feel. So when someone asked me: how are you doing, it always went well. But of course I experienced a lot during that period, even after the death.”
The death of André Hazes had a huge impact, she explains. “I was of course quite young when André died, 34, with two young children, 10 and 11.”
Hard world
It was an accumulation of things, Rachel said. “It’s just a tough world, so if we were on the left, we should have been on the right. We couldn’t actually do much right and you just want to be and stay strong for the children. But afterwards it of course became a drop, drop, drop and the bucket was full.”
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