Linda Lampenius was a guest on Roope Salminen’s Three turning points podcast.
Linda Lampenius regrets that she hit her mother as a child. ATTE KAJOVA
Violinist Linda Lampenius discusses Roope Salminen Three turning points podcast about his traumatic childhood.
Both parents of Lampenius, Börje Lampenius and Ulla Eklund worked in the theater, father as an actor-director and mother as an actress.
Eklund found everyday life as an actor tough, as there were many shows and rehearsals, and he also suffered from serious sleep problems. Eklund was prescribed very strong sleeping pills by 11 doctors, which today are classified as drugs and are no longer legal.
Lampenius has had to witness his mother’s overdoses several times and when she has mixed a large amount of drugs and alcohol. Lampenius’ father did know about his wife’s drug addiction.
– I didn’t realize that father knows that mother is sick. Mom didn’t do it on purpose, I saw how it went. When it was Sunday or he wasn’t in the theater, there was a dark room, thick curtains drawn, a really black room and that’s where the mother was lying, Lampenius recalls in the episode.
Lampenius describes his mother lying in bed in a really bad condition, under the influence of drugs.
Repentance
Lampenius says that he only regrets one thing about his life.
– I have one thing that I regret. It is that I have hit my mother. It feels really bad and it hurts.
Lampenius states, becoming sensitive, that he is not really a person who would hit anyone.
– Mother and father have never hit me. They have never touched me with a finger, Lampenius says in the podcast.
Linda Lampenius’ mother had to go through drug addiction treatment. Jenni Gästgivar
When Lampenius hit his mother, he was 11-12 years old. Due to her young age, she did not understand that the mother is a drug addict, which in turn causes the mother to not pay attention to her child in the same way.
– I couldn’t get in touch with my mother. I couldn’t understand that it was a disease. To me it was that it would have been a conscious choice for him to drink or take pills. I didn’t realize that a person can be addicted, a child can’t know that, Lampenius describes his childhood.
Lampenius’ mother got sober for good at the age of 80, when she got into a fire that almost took her life. In the fire, he understood the limitations of life.
Roope Salminen’s Three turning points podcast can be listened to In Podme.