I lost the people who loved me the most in this life

Theater and film actor Rasim Öztekin died on 8 March due to a heart attack. The death of Öztekin, who died at the age of 62, shocked Turkey. Esra Kazancıbaşı also commemorated her husband while saying goodbye to 2021.

Kazancıbaşı expressed his feelings in the message he shared:

“2021 was a big test year for me. I lost my loved ones with trembling, the people who loved me the most in this life; my love and my son.

The thing I feared most was losing the man I loved… Being alone… First my Rasim and then my son Diego became angels by causing me great pain.

I was very hurt, I cried a lot, I couldn’t sleep until the morning, I thought a lot. I tried to live with a helpless longing. The pain in the depths of my heart taught me that in the 50s it is possible to suffer from love.

In 2021, the things I feared most happened to me. In the bedroom where the three of us slept, my soul went cold in the frost of loneliness and longing. I lost my dreams, my route, my purpose. It’s like my arm is broken. In 2021, I learned to fear nothing.

I wouldn’t even utter the word “death” while writing the news. I would write “he died”, “he died”. When the heart of the man I loved stopped before my eyes, I was slapped by the death I feared.

I tried to put my head on the chest of the man I fell in love with and to give the kiss of life to the lips that I kissed with love.

I couldn’t go to the cemetery. In 2021, I prayed and planted flowers at the grave of the man I loved. Whenever I go to my love and talk to him, I am filled with peace. I learned not to be afraid of the cemetery with this great pain I experienced in my 50s. Death, also using the word dead.

And my son Diego took his last breath in my arms. I sniffed him for the last time and stroked his feathers as he sank into his eternal bed under the linden tree.

I was happy to see how many friends and friends he had accumulated in such painful and difficult days. They surrounded me with their love. I also gained new friends in my mourning days. I also removed some of them from my life who remained insensitive to the pain I experienced, acted indifferently, and even withheld a condolence by phone or text message. I deleted their phone from my contacts. I cleaned my heart and my brain, I became lighter.

I realized once again that there is only the moment in life, so we must live the present to the fullest. I am grateful for every moment spent with my love and son with happiness, love and laughter.”

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