The first time I secretly pretended I didn’t know what it was about, but of course I couldn’t keep it up. Frankly, I can’t stand that expectation was right, they were right, I couldn’t have done it. And that’s exactly what I really dislike: to plan something serious, make it public and then not do it. When people respond understandingly I feel even worse, because I just think it’s stupid of myself, why understanding? I also tend to think about what has been achieved, to keep my ego a little upright, or something like that.
Getting rid of your fear is impossible without feeling fear. You have to ‘go through | column Irma van Steijn
