Since Britney Spears (40) was freed from the guardianship of her father James “Jamie” Spears (69) after 13 endless years, she has been writing her traumatic experiences and her frustration from the soul again and again on Instagram.
By Ina Michaelis Ugwonno
This time she posted a close-up of her breasts in a black bra – and wrote a lengthy (and often confused) statement about breastfeeding her two sons and the moment she lost control of her life.
Her sons Jayden James (15) and Preston (16) from ex-husband Kevin Federline (43, married from 2004 to 2007) are her everything! The two are now teenagers and are increasingly breaking away from their famous mom.
But Britney’s thoughts always revolve around the past. In her new, now free life, she keeps reminiscing about her old one. So she now described more than vividly how she used to breastfeed her two boys.
“So I’ve been breastfeeding my 2 boys…like a frigging milk factory!” the singer on Instagram. “I’d literally pumped 6 full bottles and was by my side at all times while breastfeeding – because I never wanted my babies to be hungry!!!”
She was constantly “pumping and leaking,” she recalls. “Because I was so full of milk and my boobs hurt!!! They got so full I thought ‘hey, I’m going to build a milk factory in my living room’ and guess what I did… I did it!!! There was a time when I had 12 bottles full of breast milk!!!”
When a new mom met her two-month-old baby while on vacation in Maui and was allowed to hold her, the old memories came flooding back. “I guess our women’s bodies have memories.”
Britney Spears describes herself again and again as a full-blooded mom, suffered for years from the fact that she had to give up custody of her children for the most part after mental breakdowns and the separation from her ex. There were even times when she wasn’t allowed to see her children at all. Not only does she recall breastfeeding her then-little boys, she vividly recounts the moment she lost control of her life.
“I will never forget the first day my father became my guardian!!!” writes Britney Spears. “He said sit in the chair…we’re going to talk…He said, ‘I’m Britney Spears now and I’m in charge from now on’.”
Since that day, she has felt “robbed of a large part of my femininity,” the 40-year-old sums up. And states: “I was never the same.” 13 years later, she finally got over it.
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“Anyway… time flies and I’m looking at my body…” she continues to caption her bosom photo. “I still have the same boobs but I’m a little wiser now!!!”
Even if her long post seems very confused in many places, her fans encourage her to continue to vent and process her traumatizing past. Apparently, this also includes revealing photos with which she wants to underline and celebrate her femininity.