Onni-Pekka took her own life at the age of 25 and Tarja’s mother planned to do the same – Then came an announcement that changed everything

Tarja Huumonen quickly forgave Onni-Peka for this act. – If I hadn’t forgiven, I would have had to start hating my own child. Over

My son’s suicide drove me Tarja Humonen to gloom. The consequences could have been fatal, but Tarja survived.

Tarja tells her own story in episodes of the third production season, which continues today In the Trauma series. Tarja’s son, Onni-Pekkadied at the age of 25 in 2017. All that was left behind was a message written in the snow: “Goodbye”.

Tarja also started planning the content of her own last message.

– I planned how I would die and what message I would send To Jannewhen she goes to work, Tarja refers to her husband and Onni-Peka’s father.

Already while picking up her child’s belongings from Oulu, dark thoughts took over Tarja’s mind. He drove the family’s second car.

– Every time the truck came by, I thought that one little wrist movement. I’m heading for the next truck, and this is all over.

However, Tarja stayed in her own lane. The thought of dying still did not leave me alone. It seemed so difficult, almost impossible, to continue my own life.

– I thought that I wanted to die on the day when Onni-Peka died nine months ago, Tarja recalls on TV.

When the deadline ended, Tarja had not given up on her idea. However, it so happened that Onni-Peka’s little brother happened to announce that he was coming to visit on the very same day. Then the mother’s mind changed: she thought she had received a message from Onni-Peka.

– That Onni-Pekka doesn’t want me over there yet. It put Battery matter, Tarja says in the program.

The series dealing with a difficult topic has been made because, according to their own words, the authors hope for a Papageno effect. Mozart’s The Magic Flute-opera, Papageno gave up his suicidal intentions after talking about his sorrows with others. Talking to Onni-Peka’s close circle has also helped. His friend tells about it Teemu.

Tarja’s means of survival became writing. He wrote about his own feelings after finishing writing. At the urging of a friend, Tarja made a book, which was published on Onni-Peka’s birthday. Then the darkness eased, literally, as the sun rose beautifully on a February day.

– We went through the darkness with Onni-Peka. And then there was a light.

The series reminds us that in times of need, it’s good to talk about something that weighs you down with someone. For example, the Crisis Hotline is constantly on duty at the number 09 2525 0111.

Trauma – traces of suicide today on TV1 at 20:00. See all TV programs and broadcast times in Telku’s TV guide.